Live for Life!

after so long!!!

2010-06-16T16:09:00.002+08:00

after so long then i want to blog..haiz...

woah!! the youth camp was a blast for me and also the whole of SA!! we had real fun running, jump and turning!! paintball so like PAINball..haha and the high elements...is nothing..haha i am a outdoor adventure student....so this is nothing..haha

my team was good and had a boy who is so cute named justin.. haha

i really love the theme song!! Nothing is impossible!!

i hope that the youths had a blast there and also they might know God more and start to love Him more!!

Through You,
I can do anything,
I can do all things,
For it’s You who give me strength,
Nothing is impossible
Through You,
Blind eyes are opened,
Strongholds are broken,
I am living by faith,
Nothing is impossible!

I’m not gonna live by what I see,
I’m not gonna live by what I feel

Deep down I,
Know that You’re here with me
I know that, You can do anything

I believe, I believe,

I believe, I believe in You

try - asher book

2009-10-15T14:16:00.002+08:00

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While your running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe I'm not ready

CHORUS
But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If I sing you a song would you sing along
Or wait till I'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If I give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful
Am I catching up to you
While your running away, to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe I'm not ready

CHORUS
But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

2x Huh huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh huhhh

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me

this song keeps playing in my head and i cant do nuts about it!! but this is a super good song!!

why?

2009-10-09T00:53:00.002+08:00

i dont understand why does it have to be like that. i hate what is happening to me la!
discharge thinking can be happy then in the end suffer more WTH! mother like one kind, no money wah really sia.. why like all the haven boys get out all got problem one sia..
wah just now they piss me off la..
i have the reason why i wanna go with my fren to batam lor..then they dont wanna listen then want to make fun of it.. super pissed!
why cant they see the danger of going there without being able to speak indo baharsa thjey think they can handle the ppl there? what bull shit! i got indo fren stay in batam, like that we can stay in his place and also have ppl to guide us around and also he can make sure that ppl dont get to cheat us and all la.. why they always want to act cleaver and like so naive about the things that surround them.. indo just kena problem and confirm got chaos there and we have to be extra careful.. think of that puss!! moreover i dont have enough money..go there do what? a paid for trip is better than ppl paying it for you lor..understand that before you wanna go anywhere..

blogged in a super pissed mood..

B day!!

2009-09-01T00:27:00.002+08:00

wow this year birthday not that bad la..
firstly i wanna thank those who had wish me.. THANK YOU PEOPLE!! YOU ALL REMEMBER ME!! YAY!! ok and those forget or dont bother ones..haha never mind i know you all care for me in many other ways.. haha (thick skin)

got a shock ah.. aunty Janice and her family actually brought me a cake along with their daughter!! wonderful of them!!

oh i MUST mention this!! ZARRAH and AUNTY CATHY wished me on skype and sang me happy birthday!! love this man!! some more at 12 am..haha..

oh the presents were all good....other than von and kari one..toothpaste and tooth brush..like i got bad breath like that.. haha Sylvia gave me a LIVERPOOL shirt! love that!!

today went back to CWD to see teachers.. haha not bad la..first time sia..
then went out with those crazy frens of mine.. L4D and dota..crazy..play for donno how many hrs.. i have to pay like 12.70 for that..haha..oh ya and pool!! i 9 ball owning ah!! haha

ok la i wanna stop le la..com so lack..

hope to get a job soon..holiday now..
i miss you.....

Uncle Kracker — Smile lyrics

2009-08-30T18:56:00.000+08:00

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

where are you.... is this hon wah??

2009-08-29T00:08:00.003+08:00

i don't know how to explain this feeling.. like you want someone to be happy and in the mean time while the person is happy enjoying, you over the other corner feeling like a total dumb ass.. cause you are all alone in a 4 walled room feeling lonely and want someone to be there to lean on, hug or rest on cause you feel like a total jerk.. the best part is that you are the one who made yourself end up like that... you made the mess and at the mean while you grieve on it.. feel like getting real wasted but think second thought... it won't solve anything..i will only get drunk, hangover, heartache and nothing between the problem and you is solved..

why would someone love to feel like a total jerk and a useless piece of poo.. think poo also better ah.. can fertilize the soil ah, where as i cant..

Everybody Knows John Legend

2009-08-26T00:14:00.002+08:00

It gets harder everyday, but I can't seem to shake the pain.
I'm trying to find the words to say, please stay.
It's written all over my face.
I can't function the same when you're not here.
Calling your name when no one's there.
And I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy.
I still can't believe you've found somebody new.
But I wish you the best, I guess.

Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows.
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt.
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows just how to make it right.
I wish we gave it one more try.
One more try,
one more try,
one more try,
'Cause everybody knows, nobody really knows.

I don't care what people say, they brought it all in anyway.
Baby don't fill up your head with he-said, she-said.
It seems like you just don't know. (don't know)
The radio's on, you're tuning me out.
I'm trying to speak, you're turning me down.
And I know one day you'll see nobody has it easy.
I still can't believe you've found somebody new.
But I wish you the best, I guess.

Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows.
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt.
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows just how to make it right.
I wish we gave it one more try.
One more try,
one more try,
one more try,
'Cause everybody knows, nobody really knows.

Oh I wish you would understand.
Just an ordinaryman.
I wish that we have known
That everybody knows, that nobody really knows.

And I know one day you'll see nobody has it easy.
I still can't believe you've found somebody new.
But I wish you the best, I guess.

Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows.
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt.
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows just how to make it right.
I wish we gave it one more try.
One more try,
one more try,
one more try.
'Cause everybody knows that nobody really knows.

this song is good..right pam and massy?? haha our clan.....

wow day!!

2009-08-15T15:11:00.000+08:00

after so lonnnnnnnnnngggggggggggg..........yesterday was fantastic! great day that i left behind. haha!
ok let me start, when to school late....and when i was on the way up, i got a msg from shamira that today's faci is JOVIN!! wah his class can kill you ah..so we all have this great plan that we wanna zao after 2nd meeting...then all you know is that almost the whole class did la!! only like left 5 person in class.. so proud of W45K!! then i went to recycle 2 old nokia phones!! one mine and the other is my mum and she dont know that i took it..haha..it was said that when i recycle, that they plant tree in indo and then i can look for it in google earth..haha so cool!! cant wait to check it out man!!

ok then after that went on to meet rachel.. we lame lor...we go like from holland v to bishan station and then she got this plan of taking the circle line which we never take before la... haha went from bishan to bartley to marymount..haha then almost went to j8, AMK hub and even thomson!! but in the end to went to bishan there and got milk tea..haha wosh!! that one is the best i ever have and the only one that i actually finished! like got more milk than tea..and what i heard from rachel is that the milk is made from the powder one..haha..then went to central to chill and check out facebook and all..

after that, i went on to orchard to meet gopal and (ben who ps us) to watch 'district 9'. good effect and all but thought that the story line a bit....you know la.. haha gopal thinks that it should be a series than it will be super good...same thinking as him...

basically overall was fun and did things i never done before and go to so many places in a day and then finish my first milk tea also not forgetting that i was very friendly to tha environment..hahahahahaha!!

woah!

2009-07-19T20:37:00.002+08:00

it's been real long since i last blog ah... raelly longggggg! you all miss me right?!
my life had been real fun so far.. went up on the net for funny reasons, do funny things, and then gotten something that i was looking for, for more than a year..this is real crazy.. but i'm having fun! there is jus to much to update and say so i shall slowly share my enjoyment time wif you so wait! haha

Flightless Bird, American Mouth

2009-06-16T15:08:00.003+08:00

I was a quick wet boy
Diving too deep for coins
All of your straight blind eyes
Wide on my plastic toys
And when the cops closed the fair
I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map
And called for you everywhere

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Cursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats
Curl through the wide/white fence cracks
Kissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean
Blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, brown hair bleeding
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill, stuck going down

this song is good when i'm having a looooonnnngggg day............

This is our God

2009-06-04T07:21:00.003+08:00

Your grace is enough
More than I need
At Your word I will believe
I wait for You
Draw near again
Let Your Spirit make me new

I will fall at Your feet
I will fall at Your feet
And I will worship You here

Your presence in me
Jesus light the way
By the power of Your word
I am restored
I am redeemed
By Your Spirit I am free

Freely You gave it all for us
Surrendered Your life upon that cross
Great is the love
Poured out for all
This is our God
Lifted on high from death to life
Forever our God is glorified
Servant and King
Rescued the world
This is our God

this is the song that keeps me running now..
the absence of heat is cold, the absence of light is darkness and the absence of YOU is emptyness

guess who is back....

2009-05-03T19:13:00.002+08:00

Hey i'm back! back blogging..haha seems like it's super long since my last post..indeed it is very long..like 2 weeks plus haha...ok school is fine so far..kinda find it sian already..cause everyday must do presentation so abit like sian.. but overall, it alright cause i have really awesome classmates ya..they are one bunch of people you would like to hang out with and play..
so long never blog don't know what to say..so i should just stop here for the moment and see if tomorrow i would have time to blog anot..
bye bye..

WOW that's like so long..

2009-04-19T18:03:00.003+08:00

Ok long long time no blog..didnt have time, lazy or nothing to say haha..
ok this week i had orientation in RP, it was good and know alot of fantastic people there..fun loving, noisy and all.. i suppose because i'm in SHL the sporty people are there and all..so they are the real noisy people found in school so ya..guess one day i'll be like that too..cause i'm already noisy so expect that from me guys!
not really looking forward to school tomorrow.. ya tomorrow is the first day of school..8.30 start school..lazy to wake up so early..but no choice cause if not my grade will be pulled down by 0.5 and one day i have 4 so cannot really afford to be late everyday or rather cannot be late la..
Good Luck in RP!
ok..this month had been like very up and happy..dont really had lousy days other some days which i'm tired and being pulled to go out..other than that i'm as happy as a gold fish being able to swim in the sea..HAHA!
Easter was good..haha went to GH for worship..erm confession..that day the worship i think was not really good..cause all the songs are slow and i saw that the teenagers were like standing there dead..ya they dont really have reactions and all..so i think it was quite boring for them?
i realise that nowadays i got stuck in talking..as in dont dare to say much things..maybe i siao already haha..
ok i shall stop here..erm hope can get to see my post more cause i quite lazy so ya..hee

Long time no blog..

2009-04-05T13:59:00.003+08:00

WOW! for the past 9 days i did not blog..cause i had been very lazy and not willing to and maybe i did not have the time cause half of the time i'm either on the bed or all around the place, so ya..
the week was fine haha..on wednesday, de nian went to work with me and that was his first day of work..haha it had been good so far for him i think..like i'm still teaching him alot of things and he still got alot to learn so ya..ok thursday had cell..topic was SEX haha..and not forgetting i brought a guest,Rachel, again it was a unexpected one..cause all i wanted to do was to drop her and then go for cell but she wanted to drop at cell to say hi and go..so ya..friday went to central's cell ya drop by and see what they do and all..and picked up something after that..then i went back to haven to join gopal..every week i will join him for nite duty..haha..and it seems like i also should get paid for joining him and all..he owe me!
i'm having like a headache? the right side of my head hurts and i dont know what is that but it jus hurt..see doctor? but expensive..haha bo money ah..so we'll have to see how long the pain will last and all la..good luck to me..so long as i dont die..haha!

ok i lazy to carry on..so bye bye!

SUPER HAPPY!!!

2009-03-27T01:39:00.002+08:00

ok i just got my NEW LAPTOP! like super happy only..haha today went to cell with Capt Hary and he sent me to sim lim to collect it..the lady was suppose to put on the screen protector for me, but i dont know and then i went off with one myself..upon leaving, i told her i took one and then she got a shock! thinking that i've put it on myself in like 5 mins? haha then i told how i know how to put and quickly rush off cause Capt was waiting and i dont want to keep him..
went for cell and Capt supprised everyone haha! talked bout drinking and had some other topics too.. haha and i got Kenny to put up the protector for and Zarrah and sylvia helped too..and the girls was like crazy over my webcam and wanted to take pictures but haha i dont know how so promised that they will be the first one to be taken by on cam..haha lame rite? but the thing i scared is that after taking, my cam and screen might break..hahahahaha!
ok i have like the whole time to check out my new lappy tomoro..so ya have to like sleep soon cause tomoro got work and i have to help gopal's team to play on sat and that will mean that i muz have enough of sleep..
so good nite and i'll think of a name for her..(laptop)

i found out!

2009-03-25T23:23:00.002+08:00

ok today i found out something which i thought it was quite true..ok older people they tend to be very in love with thier husband or wife because they really loved one an other then they get married..but the younger generation people they have a higher chance or higher rate of couples getting divorce and break ups because some of them are together for the wrong reasons or some are force to get married..people like had babies when they are still at the boyfren girlfren stage..ya they tend to fall out more than the others..
Erm all this are not the real stats but it's more of what i see and the people around me la..so you can kinda not worry..haha
this week till now is good so far..and i hope better things coming along..last nite, went for SYOG meeting and talk bout what can we do to help and they helping us..so thought it was a good way of learning something new and a new era of young people revolving in our lives..
tomoro is cell abd looking forward to it! food and fun..FF haha!
ok and i now have to go improve in my music knowledge..haha it was an advice from someone who is better than me..obvious!
ok i wanna eat my maggi!
BYE!

2009-03-21T00:54:00.002+08:00

today i receive a call from my mum and she scolded me... ya my fault..like always..in her eyes la..sometime i'm wondering if she understand that her son is not having a good life as she thinks and he is trying to support himself without her to spend a single cent..but..

no mood to blog today...spoiled by my mum's scolding..

Not working..

2009-03-19T22:53:00.003+08:00

Haiz..today is the second day in a week that i did not go to work..tomorrow will be the third..first day, was because my uniform was not ready and i dont have a second pair so i never go..today and tomorrow is because my leg is in pain i could not walk properly, and as i'm working in a cafe, i have to serve and walk around so i cant really go to work..

Today was quite bored though..went to east coast with haven and played mini golf..wow that almost took my life..cause we had to walk from hole to hole and lucky most of the time i was holding on to the put..haha..i used it as a walking stick..quite cute la..and i found out that i really cannot play golf, or rather mini golf i would say..and it is very boring when you play with the wrong kind of people who plays cheat..haha as if i did not..haha

today there's nothing much to long for cause today got no cell..and normally when thursday comes, we will be like whoa! cause friday is near and so do the weekends haha..so actually today dont feel like it is thursday to me..

Quite happy for the boys in haven in the Teen Games performance..the U15 got into the semi finals but lost there..but still not bad cause last year they never even hit for the knock out rounds..also tomorrow will the the U19 boys who are playing..they are also through to the knock out rounds..haha not bad la..we'll see of the boys can be like us last year went to the finals..not trying to boast here..the truth is...if they can go to the semis..they are consider as not bad..as the team is not very together..as in the passes and all so ya..but still ALL THE BEST!

Friday..have no plans of going anywhere..so maybe i'll find something to do and spend the night..

Good nite people!

hey! i feel good talking to you..hope you feel the same way too!

suay..

2009-03-18T22:41:00.002+08:00

tell you..i super suay yesterday i injured my shoulder..today i got my ankle injured..like super suay..then the both time also super pain..
dont know why i like lazy to blog this few days..haha
sorry really very lazy..
so i ending here..
BYE!

oh..

2009-03-15T20:25:00.002+08:00

Thursday cell was good and the food too like usual..didnt really have cell cause kor kor Marcus was not well so ya..but we had a good laugh out the heart..
Friday..work and had headache if i should go church or not..but in the end i went to church..haha
watch a movie there and the title is "Fireproof" great show! really good! this reminds me of what gopal always say to me..man can play with fire but not fireproof..haha..the show is about divorce and the guy trying to save the marriage and at the same time found God..haha go watch it it's good.. Then i went back to haven to pei gopal...
Saturday...mistaken that the IT show starts at 9 so i went there with major and then at there we found out that it only start at 12.. :( so we went back to the corps and waited..then went over there at 12..got the laptop! major brought it for me cause i pass my o's haha it was a reward cause she did not expect that i will pass..ya you guys too dont believe rite? haha
In the nite i rush back to haven after supper? haha went back in a cab and i did not regret spending the money cause MAN U got trash by LIVERPOOL! 4-1! they lost at home! ok i shall not say it anymore before i get chase by man u fans haha..
sunday...ya you guys know my routine..church then work till 9..haha
tis week is full of enjoy i think..and not enough sleep..everyday sleep at 3 or later..but i'm ok with it cause i still get my sleep till like 10 in the morning..so not that bad..if not you'll see panda in action..haha
ok stop for the moment..
carry on later or tomorrow..

2009-03-11T23:19:00.002+08:00

I think life has got so much of different surprises that will surprise youeveryday, and everyday there's something new to share and talk about with one another..
today aws good but only in the morning, i went to NUS for nothing..cause my manager ask me go there take something from that outlet..but when i go there, the manager tgere said that he pass the thing to the food supplier so i have to go there and take nothing! long walk up and down! then before i go work, i rested in haven first..haha
my leg super pain..it hurts like hell! blister and swell..
too bad for me..

time wasted? i dont think so

2009-03-10T22:40:00.003+08:00

today work was good..didint have like super alot of things to do and ya so today can be counted as fine, at work.

today i just found out that people out there will surely try and fulfil what they want in life..no matter how much you explain or even complain they will want to do what they want..the thing is i dont think i watsted my time trying to help and trying get things into his or her mind..cause i believe that one day he or she will understand me and what i've tried to help..

Lenin promise to give the Russian people land, peace and bread and he did..

Honwah tried to give love, perseverance and bread...but he failed badly :( so he now got no choice but to keep it..maybe justin would had been the better choice ya?

so much of history..

i wanna end here..

sorry..

what a day!

2009-03-09T22:46:00.002+08:00

WOW! today was crazy at work..started at 9 am and i never had a chance to like really sit down and rest till the shop close! i'm in all this cause the full timer is on MC.. :( but lucky got someone from another outlet came and help so not that bad after all..if not i would had like be dead now..haha but still...horrible day for everyone..rain the whole day..but the temp is just nice..good for sleeping..hahaha!!
tomoro i have to wake up early to send one kid to school..like that means cut sleeping time..oh too bad for me!
Tomoro good luck and all the best for Lee Hon Wah cause he might end up in "A and E"! (hong kong way of speaking)

oh...

2009-03-08T19:44:00.002+08:00

Last few days was busy..firstly on thursday, CELL!! had a great time and ended like super late and went back super late too..haha
Friday was the staff dinner..haha went there to do the sound like the other years..and had a good time there and saw people there who i havent seen for long and met some new frens..haha
saturday i was the morning in haven very tired cause didnt really sleep but lucky the boys never really give me problem so not that bad..but i dont think they even dare to cause me and gopal was there so they cant do much though..
today.....long day and only can go back at 9..tomorrow start work at 9..haiz..muz wake up early..hate that! i wanna sleep!!! pig is not the word for me cause i really very tired and dont have enough sleep..what to do..
What to do??

i'm not sorry...

2009-03-04T23:16:00.006+08:00

All this time I was wasting,

Hoping you would come around

I've been givin' out chances every time

And all you do is let me down

And it's taken me this long baby

But I figured you out

And you think it would be fine again

But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby,

Like I did before

You're not sorry.

Oh no, no, no

Looking so innocent,

I might believe you if I didn't know

Could've loved you all my life

If you hadn't left me waitin' in the cold

And you got to share your secrets

And I'm tired of being last to know

And now you're asking me to listen

Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby,

Like I did before

You're not sorry.

No, no, Oh.

You're not sorry.

No, no, Oh.

You had me crawling for you honey

And it never would have gone away, no

You used to shine so bright,

But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

There's nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby,

Like I did before

You're not sorry.

No, no, Oh.

You're not sorry.

No, no. Oh.

Taylor Swift - You're Not Sorry

i know you wanna sing this.. :)

A day passed...

2009-03-02T22:34:00.002+08:00

ok..another day..like things are not that well as it was supposed..why?! never mind i shall not brag about it..

Work was as usual..nothing much but tiring day after all and played soccer never before haha

feel like loads of fats are being burned today.. :)

i dont know what's goin in my mind..the only thing i know is that i have got no idea what am i LEE HON WAH is thinking about..i want this, i want that, i want everything..so much of uncertainties..like it was when i was 15 when i was still having that kiddy thinking?

Nah..i sound like i'm gonna die like that..haha :O

this week is not gonna colourful from what i see now..never..

When you were a kid, you long to do things that the teenagers are doing..when you're a teen, you wait for your first NC16 show and brag it that you watched a NC16 show..when you hit 18..wow another life, another you..you club, you drink and you smoke, cause you're legally able to do all of that..when you hit 19..all this things are not what you long for..it's like you happy you do lor thing..ok..next is 21..this is the part where you hit adulthood this is the other part..
Ask yourself..why do you wanna go through all the different stages like that? why? like we can go without going through all of that..rite? but all this can be done when the parents do their jobs..let me code this..."Train a child in the way he should go,and when he is old he will not turn from it." Proverbs 22:6 see all this control thingy can only be gone when parents do the above..
i dont know why am i saying all this but this is what i feel bout my own parents..ya..
ok i shall not say anymore..
i'll go off for now..bye bye.. :)

It's getting colder and colder..

2009-03-02T00:06:00.002+08:00

This week is like so cold..never had this since before Taiwan Camp..even in Taiwan, on the yatch, everyone was on their jackets but i was not having any and passed it to jia hui..but still no problems..but now???

Oh you guys must be thinking that i'm physically cold right? ha nope, i'm talking bout emotional cold.. i'm as cold as a dodo..this was what zarrah said in the musical..but now i'm the dodo..after so long i'm finally feeling it again..i told myself that i will never want and will have this feeling anymore, but look this is horrible! i feel horrible! why? why now? this is the only thing i had been wondering about this whole week..
i just wanna know what happened..anyone with answer?

today i finally played pool again...like after so long like i have stop on Christmas night ya..that day, that very day..now i even dont remember how to set the balls..i was like what!? at the pool place, i saw couples playing and teaching..i used to have a student but now dont know if she still regard me as her teacher anot? cause what i heard the last time was, she found a teacher better and more handsome too..so ya..so bad right, never pay still so bad to me.. :'(

ok i didnt had a good sleep last nite so i'm having it tonite!
Good nite! and i'm so cold..pls warm me up..

No Headlines.

2009-02-28T13:34:00.003+08:00

Yup there's not headlines now haha only thing is that last nite went out with Celine and Sylvia to watch "He's Not That Into You" haha what a kinda movie you watch with females ya.. i know like so not right haha, i guess.. basically i learnt alot form that movie itself haha like if he/she she not calling dont bother haha but think again, if both had thought the same way, nothing, NOTHING will work out.. but even when he/she called, dont think too much bout it cause it might not be anything just that he/she is bored so thought of you haha.. MAN! this show you guys gotta watch!

You made me realise.

2009-02-27T01:12:00.002+08:00

Firstly, today was cell and we spoke bout savings and the economy ya like what does it gonna do with us young people..haha and again came back late..
i just feel like crap now...you've made me realise, realise that i had been so not nice at all and things like that..ya i agree, So Long As You Are Happy is what i had always been saying but it was for you to feel that i'm not trying to take control of things but more of letting you do what you think is right and let you learn by yourself..like what gopal told me, hon wah, it's your lesson to learn not my lesson to teach. It applies here, your lesson, no matter what i say it wont do much..so ya.. no one is perfect..i know, cause i'm not so i dont expect anyone to be. but there are things which are in your control..like what some people told me, in life is either you are in control or you are not in control..so i believe that in life there are things that is within our control it is only how we gonna face it and get the right thing done..i know i have been selfish and only thought of me, me and me but i cant help it.cause as the days grew, i seen you go even deeper in and you're not like what i first saw..but as i was gonna loose it, someone told me to place myself in the same position and have a look if i would had done the same thing..looking at it, i would had done the same or even worst so told myself that it's not your fault, just that i have a better foundation and i expected yours to be as deep as mine.. i was wrong in expecting so high cause not everyone learns the same way and not everyone will think the same way too..i know it will not be so impactful now but just wanna share my point of view..i know, removing things that you long for is not as easy as i thought and not as easy as it looks but i kinda understand the grounds now and the soil we are stepping on..different soil grow different things and different flowers make the garden look pretty and different people in life makes up the different stages of your life..all this i had not understood as i do now..cause you made realise that it is more than what i feel and see in my circle..and that is why if back in time when people first said that the earth was square, i will be the one of them who agrees with the statement cause i have never look beyond what i could see and find out but just blindly follow the trent, that's just too HonWah's style..
alright so much of soul searching....
Guys, go watch Benjamin Buttons..great show and it shows how not selfish can we be and what would have happen if we only thought bout our self and our own pleasure..
Ok stopping here! Good nite! hope you will understand...

Another Day...

2009-02-25T22:39:00.002+08:00

Haiz..another day in the same way..so sian..went to work and did the same thing..like so routine..but at least came back and played soccer though..
WAH! that uncle peter and aunty janis sabo me only..haha not gonna say what happened but they will know and i know that they will be reading this though..haha they will know what i talking..
NO news..no sound..that's what's happening not sure why but keen to find out..
It has been boring since i started work..NO LIFE!!
but looking forward to friday..cause weekend will be next and tomorrow also..cell and the FOOD!! like wow only..haha

Nothing to say so i end here bye..tell me what you want pls....

i understands...

2009-02-24T23:09:00.002+08:00

today is not a good day at all..we to work blur blur and kinda got scolded..the reason is that i was thinking bout alot of things and so many thing ran though my head in like 5 mins? haa just not today..
actually i do understand the things you're goin through..but never mind maybe just not the time yet..but i believe that the day will come and we'll see what is for everyone..
today i found out that one word answer wont help in anyway..avoiding it and ya..

nothing to write lei..ya you may think i got no life..true..no life now..life-less..

haiz,tomorrow is another day of NO LIFE...hope i survive it..all the best to me..
bye...

Boring...

2009-02-24T00:20:00.003+08:00

Ah today was so boring..went to work in the morning and then learnt how to make coffee haha..wad a thing to do..at least i learn something new today and maybe i can work in other places next time with the making coffee skills haha..
after work came back to haven and played soccer..boring also, cause there was a coach and then while playing, he keeps asking the other to stop and spot their mistakes..for me was like a waste of time cause the thing the coach teach i also got learn before la..and i keep running and stopping, very tired de lor..but i was like never mind cause they gonna play for teens game so ya..
today was like not alot of happenings so ya nothing much to talk bout..

I've been alone so many nights now
And I've been waitin' for the stars to fall
I keep holdin' out for what I don't know
To be with you, just to be with you
So here I am staring at the moon tonight
Wondering how you look in this light
Maybe you're somewhere thinkin' about me too
To be with you, there's nothing I wouldn't do
And I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually
And when we finally meet, I'll know it's right
I'll be at the end of my restless road
But this journey, it was worth the fight
To be with you, just to be...
Holding you for the very first time, never letting go
What I wouldn't give to feel that way...
Oh, to be with you...
Oh, and I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually.
And when you're standin' here in front of me
That's when I know that God does exist
'Cause He will have answered every single prayer
To be with you, just to be with you
You.... wonder who will i sing it to????
this song had been running through my thick skull for weeks..
really love it..should try listening to it..it's by David Archuleta- To Be With You
haha guys i think this is the song your girlfriend want to listen to when you sing..she'll be touch..
Alright..time for bed..i'll end here for now..
BYE!!

HTHT Day..

2009-02-23T01:12:00.002+08:00

haha today was a Heart To Heart Talk day for me..after service i had one and after gh on the way back in Capt Hary's car had another one haha..not bad though like fell much better now with things in my chest being released..
Goodness! i go gh can die ah! everyone asking me the same question! how's you and her?? like mei ge ren dong liao la! so pai seh can?! but still i kept quiet and said nothing..haha i noe that's not wad everyone wants to hear..me and you????
again today very tired..like since the day i started work, i have been very tired and feel so burned out.. just dont feel as good as before..
i wanna sleep..
Good Nite! and thank those people which i had the HTHT with! you noe who you are..haha

Really didnt have the time to blog lately...

2009-02-21T12:45:00.006+08:00

Wow the last few days was like so busy.. wake up go work and then go back and sleep.. really not the kinda life i wanted though..haha Thursday went for cell and when back quite late so went to sleep after that..haha tired to no choice. that gopal PS me, say he goin than never.he owe me one man!! as i thought i'll be goin home alone, i found out that the office lady in cell 'sylvia' is goin the same way so we took the train back and guess wad, she said there will be train from Jurong east to clementi at 12 plus plus but in the wad i saw was "TRAIN SERVICE ENDED" i was like never mind i'll cab back...
Yesterday was my 1 week of work yeah! haha the joy of knowing that the weekend was near yesterday was the feeling i never had before not even in school days man!! haha and when the time came for me to go haha i faster run back haha so bad of me but still OT no extra money i dont think you will want to stay also..at nite i followed haven to NUS to watch movie..HORTON.. i was like....never mind just watch it.. but quite funny la so not that bad though..then when we finish, we went back and that auntie pathma for nothing scolded me for oning the tv..i was like super angry la!! not even me lor, it was de nain who on it and so more they was watch S league which i dont even wanna watch and not even interested la! so i quickly took my bag i went home pissed!
Haiz so many happenings in so few days.. ok later goin to church for youth service.. should be another long day that i'll be having though.. so sad..
i really dont know wad to do between us..pls help me with it..really it's me asking for help..
Good day people!

brb??

2009-02-18T23:08:00.002+08:00

Ok today i learnt a 'new' short form.. Be Rite Back.. all this while i never knew this la haha i'm so so so lame i noe.. first jia hui told me then i was like????????? then suddenly she never reply me then go offline, next sylvia told me the same thing then never reply me when i ask but waited a while then found out the meaning of it..barry told me haha.. i noe noob rite?? haha

Today very tired.. so i'm not gonna write much so stopping here..
Good nite!!
toa me la!! brb....

WOW!

2009-02-17T23:24:00.003+08:00

Today my war was fine and not really a war la more of like the first day of work.. busy and things like that..good thing was i was able to handle the people and the food.. took orders and learn how to make coffee! fun place to work and the people you serve are quite nice and not grumpy like some other places in town.. manager said i did well and told me that my lunch is ON THE HOUSE! WOW! but i was nice, only had pasta and did not go for high end food haha and she knows that i'm from a home cause of the way i wash plates very good so she asked me..haha and the best is she said that she also wanna send her kids there too! you know what, people say that you muz save the earth rite? but you know at my work place people take tissue like dont bother like that, take so much when you can actually clean your mouth with one piece or two some more you know where i working la, so ironic..

Another wow thing was, we first time talk on the phone for so long.. :) and the sad thing is when we wanna talk online, SOMEONE go off my plug! then when i reconnect she offline liao! that someone is beside me now! wad an ***! but still i called after that.. she powerful la! wack teacher.. first time hear girl wack teacher hahahahahahahaha!!!!! goodness so rough!!

Tomorrow is another day.. even though i'm working, i still feel bored in haven and like so restless cause i have to hand wash my uniform so ya too bad for me.. :(

today was good i think....

NITE!!

你不是真正的快樂 love this song today.."song of the day" haha LAME!

First Day!

2009-02-16T23:10:00.002+08:00

Today is the first day of work! Went to work on time haha! cause work in church always late so not bad first day on time. quite busy learning now things cause i have never work in a cafe before so getting the menu in my head is not that easy. But still thanks to the manager that actually kinda very nice to me and thought me things which i didnt know and answer some of my silly questions haha!! overall not bad la..5 days week and have my sat and sun off haha that was what i really wanted so that i can go church..like it was a muz to off on weekends hahahaha!!

Angeline..thank you for reminding her to call haha first time she called i was busy and cannot talk so ask her to wait till i knock off haha. good thing is she actually waited haha not bad! cause when i called back, she was awake! haha but sounded like mouse cause her sis was asleep..haha!

Tomorrow is the second day and manager told me to be prepared for a war during lunch haha..said that it will be really busy tomorrow so i'm mentally scared that tomorrow i screw up so good luck to me just hope that i'm still alive and well after 4.30 JUST hope so i do well!

I think so far i'm doing well at blogging hahahahahaha!! just hope that i wont die off so fast and at least i last for half a year haha!

ok i think i better have my rest before i go fight a war tomorrow.
bye people!

good thing you made it!

Thank you!

2009-02-15T23:45:00.000+08:00

Almost forgot! THANKS BEN!! i love my blog thank you for helping me and teaching me how to edit blogs ya..

Thanks! :)

Spot light was on us...

2009-02-15T23:30:00.002+08:00

MAN!! Valentine's Day was like so... kena sabo left, right, centre, up and down! Everything was like HON WAH and JIA HUI..so crazy.. ya had a crazy nite, instead of having a romantic time, me and her had to flee for our lives. haha sound so tragic. but over all, the thing that ben said was quite touching and i gave up my blue light stick to Han Wei..so touching i know hahahaha!!

Good to hear that she's out though, but still like what Major said, it's not how you start but how it's ends matters more. So now you should aim to have a good ending.

Tomorrow will be the first day of work, nothing is ready yet things like shoes and pants. dont know if in the morning got time to buy maybe the pants ya..good luck to me i muz say..haha jus hope that i can get those things in time. Zarrah is 20! so old liao haha. This is for you 'young lady' HAPPY BIRTHDAY! people say you gro older you get wiser..haha hope it's the same for you. hahahahahahaha i know i evil..

i hope you enjoyed, so sorry..

So sorry the last few days i didn't have enough of sleep so wanna go to bed already..

Good Nite.

Oh no! work.........

Oh NO!!!

2009-02-14T04:13:00.002+08:00

Alright! Got the job and start work on monday 11am but still ya dont feel working, just really like the days slacking around doing almost nothing but sleep haha.
Painted my 'new' house today with Gopal haha started late and comfirm will end late, and it did happened. That place was like so dirty, man just wanted to get outta there as fast as possible, real horrible!
Crazy day, had it long and till now still not asleep. Watched movie and ate alot in one go man so sinnful and so fattening! i'm dying but just so so so lazy to go work out my fats. Each day it's getting bigger and it looks like i'm "expecting!?" Really got to do something bout it! Just make sure that before i go school i slim down at least by a kilo haha! sound so impossible..
Sad case, if she hadn't done anything silly, today MIGHT have been me greatest day so far in the year of uncertainties..but too bad, it was ruin..dont bother..
Ok nothing seems to be the best yet but it will come.. thats for sure!
but you could had been that change for but too bad..
Alright my head is real heavy for now so bye for now..details of V Day will come..Good things might be in stored for me and should pop by anytime..
YEAH!!!

Rushing Day.

2009-02-13T01:02:00.002+08:00

Today everything was in a rush very rush. Morning i got a last minute assignment to send Kah Hong to school and it was like 8.30! Everyday i wakes up at 11 or 12 but today was 8am can?! Then after that went for school run..so boring..then guess wad i got a part time job at DOME at Science park which is super near Haven hahaha!! suppose to meet the person tomorrow and we'll see how hee...In the afternoon, went back to Clementi Woods to collect $$$$ Good Progress Award, believe or not this is my first time haha..thursday, so went for cell had great food, pasta! Man i enjoyed that moment of life..BTW to cell was also a rush haha..typing this is also a rush cause after this i have to rush to bed and sleep so that tomorrow i can paint my house and then i can move in as soon as possible.. really hate staying with my uncle, long story..
Aiya so sad after hearing what happen to her, that's why she didn't call too bad..but my question is why?! why when you're going to discharge? cant you had done it earlier?! forget it, what done is done and like what Zarrah told me, 'everyone makes mistake' to you better learn from it..
Man really tired and have to head back to bed..
Good Night!

This is the start and many more to come!

2009-02-12T00:28:00.005+08:00

Alright guys!
This is my first post haha so like.........ya i know it's kinda boring now with the layout and all but not to worry i'll upgrade and serve you better in the near future so do look out for that ya haha!
ok today was a wadever day haha like everything i saw in the morning was like so "wadever la!" not too sure why but what i think is maybe i didn't got enough sleep so a bit grumpy and like wad song boon said like zombie haha.. if you're wondering what's happening, he's right beside me now watching the whole process of the brith of my BLOG! haha!
ok dont get freak out when you actually see me blog haha i know how you feel when you see my blog, it's me playing F# for the "desert song" haha yvonne knows what it mean and maybe the worship team people might get what that meant.
Ok V Day is near and no dates, no plans and no ONE TO DATE. so guess i'll spend the day AGAIN with no life.. but what makes me counting to the day is that i'm goin to church and see what ben had in store for us for the youth worship looking really forward to it man!
Friday, 13 of February erm she's out ya only i know who and maybe you guys can guess who's that. Ask her to call me, till now i receive nothing, goodness she totally forgot bout me! Told her not to forget and there it comes she forgot! still waiting, so faster call before the day come..
Tell you guys what, you should go watch 'Underworld Rise of the Lycans' it's a good show.
And now i'm trying to gather all 3 Underworld so that i can see the link from each movie haha so into it now, werewolfs and vampires.
Ok guys i've got to stop before i burn the keyboard..so bye song boon and bye blogspot bye hon wah!